Hold On….Why Did You Say That For

If you love me with all your heart
Ill make you a star
In my universe
And you can send all your light my way

Its Tuesday again…and I’ve woken with a dark ominous cloud shrouding my every move

Julia & Angus Stone are on repeat on my iphone and have been since I willed myself from the shower floor
I spent the hour long drive to work sobbing and honestly feel as if my heart is breaking

Ten minutes of self pep talk to get myself from the car to my desk and have created a wall of paperwork to hide behind.
I have everything…I should be happy

 Instead my husband and I haven’t spoken since Friday Night…and I can’t bring myself to break the silence
I’m as FAT as I have ever been in the past few years and I feel suffocated
I want to leave, and have gone so far as to look at rentals in small country towns within a few hours drive from here
I dream of taking my puppy and myself and starting a life all on my own

But that would be running away and wouldn’t solve anything 

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